Monday, October 19, 2020

My Healing Journey: The Holidays

I am STILL on my healing journey. I have made progress, but my healing is still in progress. Some days I wish that my healing progressed far enough to positively affect my weight noticeably. But, there are signs that I am healing (like strong detox responses, for example). My healing is just not so much with the noticeably...yet.

Although, my friend says she has noticed my acne seems to have cleared up. And it has, sort of. My face doesn't have so many red splotchy marks. But I notice the little pops that come up every once in awhile. Usually when I am having a strong detox response. So, of course I focus on that. But shifting my focus from negative to positive is still a healing area in progress too. I do see the positive more so now than I used to though.

    

Another area I am still working on is my relationship with and my response to the holidays. 

It is Hallowthankmas 😏 time again. And that means traditions, family, and food.

When Hallowthankmas rolls around, this is what comes to my mind:

  • Pumpkin Spice Lattes 🎃☕ 😋 
  • CANDY! 🍬🍫
  • Cookies, pastries, cakes, pies! 🍪🍰🍩
  • Family 👪
  • Friends 😃
  • Rewatching Halloween movies I like (mostly the Disney type).
  • Weekends filled with Hallmark Christmas movies even thought it is not even Thanksgiving yet. And in recent years, it is not even Halloween yet when the Christmas movies start.
  • Rewatching Christmas movies and tv shows I like (A Charlie Brown Christmas and It's a Wonderful Life for example).
  • On Thanksgiving Day, eating so much that you can barely breathe, but the second you can breathe again, bring on the pie.
  • The day after Thanksgiving means bringing out the Christmas decorations and starting the Christmas music. 🎄🎶 And bring on the peppermint mocha, hot cocoa, and matcha lattes.
  • Christmas lights. Not mine. Driving by to look at the work other people have done.
  • Presents 🎁
  • Alcohol 🍷 🎉Happy New Year!
The holidays have not always been great and wonderful for me. But, looking back, I am missing when things seemed wonderful. When I was my one grandma's favorite. Or when my other grandma baked me loaves of bread. When relatives thought I was cute and fun to be around. When life was not so complicated. When life seemed to be more exciting and life did not hurt so much.





 







Though I look back nostalgically, I am not the same person now that I was then. I am at a different energy level.
☝ On the one hand, I do not now wish to return to the person I once was. I have already been her.
✌ On the other hand, I continue to hang on to the person I once was through food, especially around the holidays.

I realize that I would not now be the person I am without having been the person I was first. And I like who I am now. 

Yet there is something keeping me hanging on to who I was. Probably because this is an area of healing that still needs to be done.

My body is physically reacting differently to my traditional holiday foods. Like, my body is no longer tolerating unhealthy food for long, nor is my body tolerating unhealthy amounts of food. Yet I still keep consuming these foods. Even trying to change up the recipe to a healthier more healing version from the Medical Medium website disconnects me from the nostalgic feelings. I  know it is not so much the physical aspect of the foods, it is something spiritual and emotional within me that needs the healing. When that healing happens, the food will not matter so much.

If you are ready and willing to change up some of your holiday recipes, check out the recipe blog on the Medical Medium website -- https://www.medicalmedium.com/medical-medium-blog-recipes.htm

Here are some direct links to healthier holiday recipes (I have not actually tried any of these yet) --
*Links open a new window.

If you are interested in listening to any of the Medical Medium podcasts, here is one about coffee --
https://soundcloud.com/medicalmedium/007-coffee-matcha-chocolate-abusive-relationship



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