Ugh...Cravings are a b**ch

During my healing journey, cravings have been my biggest challenge.
In the beginning, eggs were a big one. Sugar cravings pop up every so often. And salt is my current challenge.

On this lazy Sunday morning, my craving is what once was my favorite breakfast. My favorite breakfast at a restaurant was a veggie omelet with cheese, hash browns, toast (preferably rye, but sourdough worked too) with butter, and black coffee. At home, it was a couple of eggs cracked into a pan, swirled around with a fork, mixed with cheese and dried parsley, garlic salt, and pepper, put in between two pieces of toast. And black coffee.

My mouth is wanting that savory sensation. 
My body knows that type of breakfast is no longer an option.

I have already had herbal tea and a banana this morning. And I have plenty of apples and oatmeal to eat. But I keep remembering the savory breakfasts of yore.

To help with this craving in the past, I have done food prep of diced hash browns mixed with veggies, white beans, turmeric, garlic salt, and dried oregano. And if I have it, avocado. Though, I eat this for dinner, not breakfast because, according to the Medical Medium (if I remember correctly), fats are a burden on your liver early in the day; you'll give yourself a better chance at healing by eating your small amount of fats later in the day.

Today, I am running low on supplies. A trip to pick up groceries will happen this coming week. I have hash browns, but I have no suitable veggies. I do have spinach, but that does not sound good with hash browns. It does sound good in an omelet, which I cannot have. Not so much can't but won't because the last couple of times I ate an omelet, my body so did not appreciate it.

Some days I long for that seeming freedom of food choice. That seeming freedom to walk into any restaurant and eat whatever sounded good to me at the time. I say "seeming" because I am pretty sure I have had viruses and toxic heavy metals since birth. In the early days, it seemed that I could eat anything and it did not bother me physically (that I was aware of).

These days, I do have freedom to choose whichever fruits and veggies I so desire from the grocery store. Aside from the current pandemic, going into a restaurant provides challenges because the foods most people eat are not conducive to health. I hear some people wanting to argue that point. I'll refer those of you who disagree to the Medical Medium website. https://www.medicalmedium.com

I think it is the simplicity that I miss more than I am actually missing the taste of the egg, cheese, hash brown, rye toast, and black coffee breakfast. The not having to pay attention to every little thing on the menu. The not having to become an encyclopedia of how to make every meal on the planet so that you know whether or not you can eat it. The not having to read every ingredient on the label. The not having to understand what all the ingredients are on the label so you know whether or not it's harmful. 

But, here I am. A virtual encyclopedia of food and ingredients. What's done is done. I am now who I am now. And I am thankful to Anthony "Medical Medium" William and Spirit, Vani "Food Babe" Hari, and Fran Drescher's Cancer Schmancer for their help. There is so much to remember that it is nice to have resources to go to to remind myself if I ever forget.

• Anthony William -- https://www.medicalmedium.com/
• Vani Hari -- https://foodbabe.com/
• Fran Drescher -- https://www.cancerschmancer.org/check

March Forth

Today (March 4th) I marched forth into a vaccination clinic to get my first dose of the COVID-19 vaccine.

I know there are people who do not want the vaccination because they don't like vaccinations period. They have their journey in life. I have mine.

My life journey lead me to taking the COVID-19 vaccine.

I'm not one to take every flu vaccine every year. I used to. But I haven't had a flu shot since 2016. Prior to 2016, I was sporadically getting flu shots. Back in 2009, I did get the H1N1 vaccine. And I chose to go ahead and get the COVID-19 vaccine.

Prior to 2016, when I did get a flu shot, I would get soreness at the site of injection, and then I'd feel as though I actually had the flu for which I got the shot. This is why I had begun to sporadically NOT get the flu shot every year. Apparently, the "I feel like I'm sick after getting a flu shot" response is actually your immune system responding appropriately.

Since 2016, I have chosen to not get a flu shot. I have not felt sick since 2016. Nor have I suffered from seasonal allergies like I used to prior to 2016. I have not needed to use allergy medication on a daily basis. All this because I have been eating healing foods and taking healing supplements since reading Medical Medium. 

I have healed a lot since starting my healing journey in 2016. I react differently now to not so good for you foods compared to how I used to. So, I had concerns about getting this vaccine because I wasn't sure how my body would tolerate it.

When the Pfizer vaccine first came out, there were reports that people were having severe allergic responses. That added to my list of concerns. The vaccines in my area are from Moderna. So that eased some of my concern about the allergic reactions.

As I mentioned in my book (which most people have not read), this is not our first rodeo down here on Earth. We have all lived these specific lives more than once because this is an important time in our human evolution, so we are all invested in a successful outcome. (Although it may not look like it, we are actually on track for a successful outcome.) Most people don't actually remember being down here in these lives before. Though occasionally some people kinda sort of do (deja vu). I actually remember some of the previous times. Usually I am helped to remember by my spirit guides so that I don't make the same mistakes this time around.

That said, this is why I chose to go ahead and get this COVID-19 vaccine. There was a previous version of this life when I did not get the vaccine. In that version of life, I got married and went out and about living my married life and I was happy, but I ended up getting COVID-19 and I died from it. So, having been reminded of that, I chose to get the vaccine so that I could go out and about and be happy for longer (and hopefully married too).

I was also reminded of another previous version (oh yeah, we've done this way more than a few times) where I got the vaccine, but I was so worried about it that I ended up giving myself a severe allergic reaction to the vaccine that I did not recover from (I died). So why would I get the vaccine now? Because I remembered that it was not the vaccine that caused the problem for me, it was me worrying myself to death, literally. So that meant I needed to figure out how to stay calm this time.

One of the ways I calmed myself, was to educate myself on the vaccine: 

• I read that you should avoid taking pain meds before getting the vaccine.
  https://www.healthline.com/health-news/should-you-take-pain-relievers-after-covid-19-vaccine#Little-data-on-pain-relievers-and-COVID-19-vaccine
• I glanced at the Moderna website to see what the vaccine providers are being told. 
  https://www.modernatx.com/covid19vaccine-eua/providers
• I checked out the CDC website.
  https://www.cdc.gov/coronavirus/2019-ncov/vaccines/vaccine-benefits.html
• I checked out the WHO website.
  https://www.who.int/emergencies/diseases/novel-coronavirus-2019/covid-19-vaccines

I also prayed for assistance. Immediately, I was reminded of this technique that Anthony "Medical Medium" William once told us about in one of his Facebook chats. I wish I could remember the name he called it. I tried to find it on his blog so that I could link to it, but I can't remember enough about it to get any results. So I'm left with my memory of the technique which is to raise your hand with an open fist (like you're holding a bar, a hollow fist vs a tight fist). This is signaling the angels that you are requesting your open fist to be filled with healing light. When you feel that your fist is full, empty the light into your water and then drink it. I emptied my light into the orange juice I had and drank that. 

Then, as I was getting dressed, I looked at my energy jewelry (from Energy Artist Julia) and asked, "Who wants to got out with me today?" Basically, I'm not just asking the energy of the jewelry, I'm asking my spirit guides to help me pick out the best/most helpful energy for me to be connected to for the time I'm out and about. 

The first energy piece was my OM pendant. It is no longer available on the artist's website, but the brief description left on my Pinterest pin is that it helps raise your spiritual vibration and clear your chakras. This energy piece has been with me on most of my pandemic journeys. On occasion, I have forgotten to wear any jewelry when I went out, and I noticed that I felt off and things didn't seem to be going well, and that's when I realized that I wasn't wearing any jewelry. 

 And then I felt that another energy piece answering my call. This one is The Miracle Fish. By tracing the image, you lift up your "negative/earth bound issues" and bring down the "heavenly/good attributes." Basically, let go and let God. When I trace the image, I like to say, "As in Heaven, so below."

After supporting myself with good positive energies, I drove to the vaccination location. There were a lot of people. The vaccination registration website had scheduled anywhere from 34 to 44 vaccinations every 5 minutes at this location. When I drove up to the building, parking was interesting. I quickly realized that I was going to have to park on the street somewhere. I'm not the greatest at parallel parking. I was just about to turn left at the intersection just past the building when a car pulled out from their street spot right at the corner. So I pulled in right after they left. Easy peasy. Masks were required in the building. But there was absolutely no social distancing going on while standing in the line to get into the building all the way to getting to the seat with the person administering the vaccination.

Most of the people there to get their vaccines were 65 and older. I am not that old yet. My state opened eligibility this week to people 65 and older, and people with certain medical conditions. One of those medical conditions is having a BMI over 40. That's me. Severely obese. I guess that's one good thing about being fat right now is that it got me eligible to receive my 1st vaccine dose earlier than if I had to wait for my age category. Perhaps that's why my body had not yet begun to lose a lot of weight after 5 years of being on my healing journey. The universe was helping me all this time and I didn't even realize it until now.

The lady who gave me my vaccination read over my consent form. We briefly discussed allergic reactions. I wrote on the form and also mentioned to her that I have a lot of food allergies and sensitivities, but nothing I have ever needed an epi-pen for. That did not seem to concern her as far as the vaccine goes. She was an excellent vaccine giver. I turned my head so that I wouldn't see the needle. She wiped my arm, air dried it a bit, then pinched my arm. I felt a slight poke from the needle, but it was one of the better shot in the arms I have received. My mom reported feeling the vaccine itself burn a bit as it was injected. I have felt that sensation in the past with other vaccinations, but I did not experience it with this one. Either my body is better able to handle vaccinations now, or I just lucked out and got a really skilled vaccination giver. Or both.

I sat and waited for 15 minutes. Some people that came in after me mentioned to the observer person that they were told to wait for 30 minutes because of their personal medical history. While I waited, I signed in to the vsafe site on my phone. https://vsafe.cdc.gov/ 

About 6 hours later, I got a vsafe check in text. I reported that I had a mildly sore arm, a mild headache, and some mild muscle pain. I also had been to the bathroom with evacuations typical of when I am having a detox response (not nausea induced, the other end). But they didn't ask about that.

Going on about 9 hours now, and my headache is a little better. The muscle pain is a little better. My arm is still sore. And I have been to the bathroom with another detox response evac. So, I am not sure what that means for me. Am I already detoxing the vaccination? I don't know.

My mom ended up being tired the next day after her shot. So we'll see if I too end up being tired tomorrow. In case I am tired tomorrow, I ran the dishwasher tonight so I don't have to do dishes for a day or two. And, I have food prepped. So all I need to do is get to the fridge and sit back down to eat. And dinner is just sticking it in the microwave to warm it up for a couple of minutes.

Whatever you decide for yourself about the vaccine...

"Dear friend, I pray that you may enjoy good health and that all may go well with you, even as your soul is getting along well." -- 3 John 1:2